Inkling 2023 - Flipbook - Page 29
He gave me you when i said i didn’t want you
okay?
And it’s your fault because you make me remember his name
You keep me grounded in the rotten soil of his shade
Not far from the forest i left
Crawling away
As the roots held onto my ankles, my frail shawl was frayed
What have you done to me?
You keep me imprisoned in eternal dismay
I want to keep running but i can’t let you throw your own budding seed
away
I don’t want to tarnish you, you’ll leave another one
stained.
Why did i tear myself open for you
Ungrateful wretched and barely two
Ensnare myself in a pit of regret
Because i would do anything to die and forget
When she was placed into my arms
I knew she was like him, the charm
Not the one he placed around my neck
on a cold winter night when his hands unlovingly slipped under my dress
And as i caress you i remember why i’m here
Because he caressed me
Obsessively entranced with my features, my sorrow, my pain
Preyed upon for his desire
His personal gain
But the charm that could soften and work past the knots
And then leave me to die, my lifeforce clotted with poisonous thoughts
I’m supposed to want to rip myself to shreds for you
Curse the one who dared singe the hair on your head
Pure enough to withstand a pain for a cause beyond myself,
But i wasn’t pure and i couldn’t protect myself
how can i want to love my life’s greatest mistake itself
Sophia is a runner-up in the Poetry category
for this year’s Teen Writing Contest.
