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the promise of the tea-gods
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“People hurt each other inadvertently all the time—even people who
love each other deeply. But if we let go of the hurt and hold onto the
love, then love is the only thing we’ll feel. Whether it’s hurt, guilt, regrets or love—we all get to choose what we hold onto.”
Adamant as he was about defending his misery, he was mystified by
his intense desire to just let it all go and fall into her arms. The things
she said were so simple, yet so profound. He wanted to believe it all—
especially the part about holding onto the love. That sounded like a
beautiful way to live; and he wanted to live beautifully. He wanted it
with all his heart. But he could not let go of the feeling that he had done
something he could never undo, which made him incredibly sad because
when this day was over, she would be gone—and he would have nothing
to hold onto but a memory.
What had he been thinking when he pushed that blasted delete button? Why on earth had he not considered that there just might be a human being on the other side of it—a living, breathing, ever-so-kind-andgentle human being who, because she could not accept his absurd apology, turned it back on herself and willingly took responsibility for what
he had done. Just thinking about it made him nauseous; and not putting
every ounce of himself into undoing it was inconceivable. But how?
How does one unpush a button?
With a heavy heart, he finally managed to say, “Letting it go just
sounds too easy. I think I should work a little harder to make it right.”
“Easy is a choice. Hard is a choice. And I’ll take easy any day. Easy
leaves lots of time for all the things that really matter.”
“What are those things? I mean, of all the things that matter, which
things matter the most to you?”
She beamed another smile into him—or, at least that’s what it felt
like. A beam. Of light. Going right through him. It felt so good he
wanted to spin around in circles and laugh, but he wasn’t supposed to
be having fun. He was a friendship-breaker. A lame-apology-maker.
And laughing was not an option.
Her eyes sparkled. She sent him a follow-up smile—twice as powerful as the first. It almost knocked him off his feet.
